A Snapshot of My Belief Structure

Essay 8: Significance Embarrassment feels like a weird emotion conceptually, doesn’t it? I have seen people break down crying from going on stage, and all throughout schooling people were a nervous wreck for every presentation assigned. For that matter, even if we knew there would be no legal consequence, most of us would rather not walk through a city center naked. Even actions generally viewed as respectable like asking someone out or showing your love for someone in public can lead to feelings of discomfort. Taking a step back from your human perspective and just reading these statements, this feels deeply stupid. To make matters even more stupid, we aren’t even born embarrassed of these things, if anything we develop them. The most stupid, cringy, and weirdly designed elements of being human, and yet they are caused by one of the two most dominant needs among society as a whole. This need is significance , the cause of every experience of cringe, every moment of insecurity, mos...

Essay 7: Connection I was something of a loner growing up. Those who knew me would say that was because I lived in my head. I always thought quickly, so much so that my mouth could not keep up and I stuttered constantly as a result. The fact that I had such a vivid imagination made being alone more entertaining than other people who simply did not like what I liked. Those of you who bought that line of reasoning will find great utility for this essay because that was not the core reason at all. The reason why I was alone was because I did not want to be. Simple as that. Underlyingly I wanted to form a bond with others, make friends, and have a group that loved my presence, but I could not trust that people gave a crap about me. The idea of being caught in a relationship where I thought of them constantly but they viewed being nice to me as being polite hurt too bad, so I never tried. I buried my desire to make friends under constant brainstorming, story creation, and learning; holdin...